Well friends. I'm not sure who subscribed to this blog almost NINE years ago or who may stumble upon this, but to whoever reads this, know this is such a weird place to be in. I maintained my weight loss for not nearly as long as I should have or I would have liked, but it's been a journey over the last 7 - almost 8 -years since I hit my initial goal weight. I won't get into that here, but feel free to call me and I'll share the longer story with you for sure.

So as you know, or may have figured out, I've gained all the weight back that I had lost plus an additional 19 lbs from my heaviest weight (previously). I knew it was a problem, but all of my check ups at my doctor's were great except for my weight. Blood work and blood pressure were always perfect. I don't feel like crap. So what's the urgency in working on my weight, right?!

Recently I spent six days with three of my former roommates from Oregon and it was a huge blessing!! It's been so long since we were all together, and while we were missing a few of us, we got long phone calls with those who couldn't join us. It was a relaxing week and a sweet time of late nights, slow mornings, laughter, tears, prayer, and plan making for future vacation with my old roommates. 

However as I looked at the pictures from that vacation, I realize I look terrible. I'm not saying this in a vain way. I was just seeing how unhealthy I was. I don't feel as unhealthy as I am/I look. I don't struggle with basic things like climbing or going downstairs, but I know that can be an easy struggle for people who are my size. I don't want to get there. I don't want to be embarrassed by pictures anymore or have those pictures taint my memories of sweet vacations with friends. I knew something needed to be done. And now.

When I was on the weight loss journey before, a lot of it was encouraged by family members. This feels different for me. This is me owning this and I'm pretty determined to make this journey worth it in the long haul.

With all of that said, on Monday I started Nutrisystem. I'm finishing up week one and so far I'm not loving the food. It's not as good as the HMR food I ate on the last weight loss journey I was on. I'm thinking about switching to the HMR at Home program, but I'm giving Nutrisystem a full two weeks before I make a decision. 

I don't plan on posting on here with every weigh in or with weekly weight loss pictures like last time, but I will continue to update. I will continue to share. If y'all want to talk more, call me. I'm happy to talk. Part of me is really excited about not making a big deal about this while losing weight, but surprising people from time-to-time when I run into them. Also I still plan on doing rewards for every 10 lbs I lose which I look forward to and will share that, of course. I think my first reward is a new work out top and shorts. I'm currently using baggy walking shorts and a Rockbridge Work Crew tshirt. Not the most comfortable with Virginia Beach humidity.

So here I am with a goal weight of 114 and, in moment of complete (hard/painful) vulnerability, 100 lbs to lose. Tomorrow is my first weigh-in!